its so strange feeling so helpless all over again. Over whelming guilt I feel even though I know I had no part in his life, I wish I could have contributed more make his life have more meaning before it had ended so quickly

my poor sister I want nothing more to coddle you and tell you it will be alright even though I know it is going to a hard life now reality has set in. I cant even imagine what it feels like to be so in love and have that love ripped right out of your chest so violently. leaving a painful void of sorrow that cant be filled anymore by his smile or his warmth as he embraced you and said I love you one last time.

Life has cruel ways of reminding us of our fates. Its unfair how much pain we have to go through to finally excepting that it is the natural order of things.

I am so sorry my dear sister, I wish… I wish that you did not have to feel this pain. I can only hope it wont last so that you may smile again soon…

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to my friends  know that I cherish these moments with you while we're are still breathing. I love you and I want you to know this incase we don't get a chance to say these words to each other and know that I mean this with all my heart.